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The curious case of Benjamin button is a normal Drama movie with the theme i liked - Born old , die young. Liked this quote - Told by Benjamin to his daughter 

For what its worth it is never too late in my case it is too early.

To be who ever you want to be, there is no time limit, stop where ever you want. You can change or stay the same, you have no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it!

I hope you see things that stop you

I hope you feel things you have never felt before

I hope you meet people with a different point of view.

I hope you live a life you are proud of.

If you find you are not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.

Lets go fishing

 Its always just me and the small world i analyze... So my thoughts will contradict in someway or other with the rest of the world.

• We are simple beings and we develop our own set of rules in our early age by our nature and it rules us for the rest of our lives until we realize
• The realization will peak in and out subconsciously but it will take a cold coffee for you to get it out of the subconscious shell
• The realization is never complete unless you stick to it thereafter. So your realization is complete only when you stick to the finding that you did with the realization.
• You need a cold-coffee at midnight (empty stomach preferable) to shout Eureka

Example to be cited: (Please bear with me)

There is a simple rule:

Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day. Teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime

So I never gave a man a fish and neither taught him to fish. Thinking making him hungry i would make him learn fishing. I have been doing this all my lifetime. Even as I am writing this i don't feel like teaching him fishing. But the truth is I have fear, a childish kind of fear to go ahead and teach him fish. I had always thought I am just indifferent like everybody else and don't want to teach. The actual truth is I am afraid to try.

So I need a driving force to try to teach... Everybody needs a fuel after all. Then I always have a habit of not following the society. Just don't want to be a conventional human being, just want to be different from others even if is adverse. E.g. - Everybody wants to be rich and successful, i have a feeling of doing the exact opposite. Screw them!!!

So coming back to the outer example(LOLS..). So I have found the fear that is common with other which prevented them to teach fishing. That is a nauseating feeling for me, so at least until i go dreaming in my sleep i will stick to this realization and tomorrow lets see if I am going to follow the realization and truly -

Realize the truth and take the path of the pathless land of Truth. - Thanks J.K

Perfectionist

A person who is displeased by anything that does not meet very high standards.
I don't see a perfect world, so as it was not created the way i wanted. I don't want to complain but just want to make the point that this was not created by a perfectionist.
Don't be bothered about this and be the change you want to see.

Ahem...Question of Destiny!!!

The most intriguing question i have right now is where am i going? I know i am not in the right path. I have seen too many dawns lazily, initially it was fun.. But at the dusk i see myself loosing the race by a lap everyday. I feel i am destined ( this is a tall claim for me) for something, still i feel ashamed of what i am right now. This is also the process that i had to undertake for what that awaits me( Atlast some consolation). I always ask when? when am i going to do but it never dawns on me that its Now or never( A popular ad :)). I keep watching me always, what i do? how i do? am i better? to the irony i am silent watcher always... Stuck to do the mistakes i do always.
To the popular belief that I (That is you in your case) is capable of acomplishing anything i desire... I got a lot of options to explore so i get confused to choose and be the same as what i am. I think you must have known about Davini( not the CS player) he is well known for his master pieces, the sad part his most of his works are incomplete. He is a bunny hopper, like me( atlast i am satisfied with the comparision) but still i cant bunny hop in CS :'( . This character is hindering me to complete this blog even. I have a motivation to work but not for long to even finish it. Somebody shoot my head to change my attitude( Is there any one wanting to change my attitude.. Tell me i wud be glad). World has a lot of losers who like thier kind(Atleast I wud) hoping this would answer my question...

The INdecisive GURU

Being used to everything is one kind of suffering a person can undergo voluntarily. In plain English - Not minding to jump into a well if someone asks you to do so... As you believe its OK to adjust with everything. This is a passion of being the passive, humble being you want to become. But you should know when to say YES and when to say NO. Getting used to accepting things other thing is one of the side effects of being a good(very good) boy to others... This cant be cured by being a bad boy. The cure is understanding the balance of following a habit. Being good boy doesn't make the world a better place to live,it just adds the burden on you. Just help others by allowing them to carry the burden themselves if you feel that they should learn from their mistakes.
But 'Every habit has a side effect' thats what i believe. I have stated a ambiguous statement but that is a truth. If you are compulsively following something then there is a possibility that you may end up in all the wrong things that are possible. Better you take a break and relax, change, play thats what life is all about. Like way you think about a person will be change drastically over a period of time. Life is a short time to understand yourself and correct your mistakes. Don't try to correct it... Let it flow as a river. You will know what to do.

Try to figure out why i kept the title..... :)

HIS maintenace project...

I see God as a bad programmer with poor quality. I appreciate the complexity of his skill still he lacks to maintain bug free program. He does a lot of debugging as you have witnessed a lot of stories(histories or whatever) about the messiahs and the prophets who are the developers of god, who deploy the patches for all the bugs reported. but every time all the bugs are not fixed at a time. They are like a windows OS with lot of service pack and each service pack has its own bug. We users find the back doors everywhere and we find the loop holes in all the patches he sends.. This maintenance job is never ending and he promises us for every meeting that this would be the last patch.
We are like a self replicating, self learning, continuously evolving ai application. This evolution is targeted to be a super-program with no bug and the universal knowledge but we are built with a lot of conflicting rules. Let me list a few observations.

• We like to copy the efficient approach but this copying has stopped the brilliant minds to think further
• We are likely to remember the awkward mistakes that we did rather remembering the rights we did. This is done in keeping in mind that we would rectify the mistakes, but this piece of code has a bug which preoccupies us in regretting for the mistakes. This weighted balance is not properly formulated leading to a negative result
• The inherent replication quality of us tends to copy the bugs easily in the gene copying program that is a serious problem if we are being manufactured in large quantities, the probability of the bugs popping up in the wider set becomes more.
• The input that we take for the survival of the program has the fix for a particular problem but it triggers other events like introducing a cancerous cell in our body.
• Those programs that meet the specification are very few and the requirement of the program is overloading the resource.

If these are the conditions of the current project by the ultimate God. He is the one who introduced the bugs in the first place. Then how can he tell that we are choosing a wrong path and leading to the destruction of mankind. If he is the ultimate super being he should have wanted us to lead a program flow which leads to Apocalypse or he is a really bad programmer in screwing up the system. The main question is if he likes to create a good program why does he wants that to disintegrate? Cant he stop the good thing from dyeing or he is sadistic in destroying a good thing. Or if he knows the whole program flow of the system and is watching over the system all the time he has a worse job than me, doing the most boring job than me.This makes me feel good in pointing out his bugs as a Tester!
Man give me a feedback..

Holi-Day

A DEMON-stration of colors